When My Time Comes

You can’t know

Won’t know

Won’t see

Because I fiercely protect this heart of mine

Can’t judge me when you don’t have all the puzzle pieces, see

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This world has been my HELL but I am

Grateful for any measure of peace bestowed upon me

I hear Grandma whisper: Aren’t you tired, sweetie?

Papa echoes: Stop and smell the roses! You’re missing it. Stop, look around, honey!

Stop trying so hard, bending over backwards, worrying constantly

Allow yourself to be in awe of the immensity

You don’t have a choice anymore. Let go, Sweet Pea. Let it be. Let it be.

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Wait! Let me go to The Fox Theatre to watch one more show —

Before the robes of My Confessor flow

I could say it out loud, SHOUT IT — Then, they’d all know

Maybe afterwards I’ll have the strength to let go

OH, OH, OH! Then, will I have earned my Sweet Release?! Will I?!

Until I do

Until I get the courage to — Well…

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You can’t know

Won’t know

Won’t see

Because I protect this heart of mine so fiercely

Can’t judge me when you don’t have all the puzzle pieces, see

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Listen — Promises aren’t just words to me

My words aren’t empty

My burdens are released with beautiful clarity

So, when it’s my turn, when my time comes, use my story as a sign

It’s what I want, make an offer to straighten out a knot in a lifeline

Laying in peace — FINALLY

No more pain, no more anxiety

No more running on empty

Just sweet peace and me

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All my Fires have been put out

Drunk on the River of Rest — YES

Wanna jump in, full immersion — PLEASE

I’m gonna head towards Heaven — NOW

FINALLY — my request has been granted

BLINK. OPEN. LOOK.

Twirling in my pink dress and pearls— Happiness has me SHOOK

Arms wide, I’m spinning on the gold patines of My Eternity

NOW.

I.

AM.

FREE.

NOW — I can let go and let it be!!!