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Crash

It amazes me that I am shocked when people disappear. Into thin air it seems, with no rhyme or reason to been seen.

I’m just one of many who have had the unfortunate experience of being discarded away.

I’ve tried harder.

I’ve withdrawn.

I’ve changed myself — for better and worse.

I’ve begged.

I’ve raged.

I’ve screamed and cried. 

Yet — much to my dismay

All the consoling myself, saying, it’ll be okay…

NO! NO! NO! 

It’s NOT. It’s NOT okay!

How cruel a thing it is to feel like living trash!

A paper cup in the bottom of a dirty can!

Waiting for the big truck to come with its dreadful crash!

Eleanor Lorene Lowe
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19 responses to “Crash”

  1. Timothy Price Avatar
    Timothy Price

    Oh Eleanor. That is so terrible you are made to feel that way. You are not trash, and obviously finding one who is worthy of your brilliance and beauty is a so very difficult. One day. One day you will deliver yourself for your torments and terrible feelings.

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    1. Eleanor Lorene Lowe Avatar
      Eleanor Lorene Lowe

      As I mentioned to Niyathy, I should’ve prefaced that the poem was not a reflection of a current feeling. Although, I often feel this way. I have found constructive ways to overcome these feelings but they still bubble up to the surface sometimes.

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      1. Timothy Price Avatar
        Timothy Price

        A preface would be good. It can be hard to know what’s in real-time and what is from days gone by.

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      2. Eleanor Lorene Lowe Avatar
        Eleanor Lorene Lowe

        😉

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  2. NiyathyDios Avatar
    NiyathyDios

    This isn’t the Eleanor I have been knowing. Eleanor is the feminine power who is the fire. Am I wrong, my love? You emotions are contagious that I feel trash too.Please help!

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    1. Eleanor Lorene Lowe Avatar
      Eleanor Lorene Lowe

      This is something I wrote a while back. I should have prefaced that it is not a direct reflection of how I’m currently feeling. Though, to be fair, I do feel like that often.

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      1. NiyathyDios Avatar
        NiyathyDios

        I do not have to remind you my love, there is a proverb in Tamil which means , ‘the gem is always precious even if it’s in the garbage trash” – குப்பையில் கிடந்தாலும் மாணிக்கம் மாணிக்கந்தான். So let me know when ever you feel visiting garbage , we will feel trash, together! Deal? 😉

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      2. Eleanor Lorene Lowe Avatar
        Eleanor Lorene Lowe

        💖 ✨ 😃💖 ✨

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      3. NiyathyDios Avatar
        NiyathyDios

        Keep smiling sweet heart. 👑✨

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  3. GraceoftheSun Avatar
    GraceoftheSun

    💕❤️❤️❤️💕

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  4. Michael Raven Avatar
    Michael Raven

    ♥️

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  5. mic Avatar
    mic

    👌👌👌✒💖💖💖 It’s a lousy feeling to feel unwanted. Dehonesting. But in the end, it’s just a feeling. It’s nothing real, even if you feel that way. The last thing we should want is to feel the way the one who despised us wished us. Don’t give him a win. Take a breath. It could have been worse … I wish You a beautiful and happy day dear Eleonor😘🤗🌞

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    1. Eleanor Lorene Lowe Avatar
      Eleanor Lorene Lowe

      Mic, I appreciate you. Thank you so much for your very thoughtful and encouraging comment! I hope you have a great day as well, my friend!

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      1. mic Avatar
        mic

        💝Don’t let a single day ruin by your feelings. The day could have been better if I was younger, but I wouldn’t cry over spilled milk 🤗😉❤

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  6. henhouselady Avatar
    henhouselady

    People shouldn’t be discarded like trash. I’m sorry you had those experiences.

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    1. Eleanor Lorene Lowe Avatar
      Eleanor Lorene Lowe

      Thank you, my friend. It’s not fun. Would wish it on no one… The only silver lining I can identify is that it builds resilience.

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      1. henhouselady Avatar
        henhouselady

        Yes they will.

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  7. mistermaxxx08 Avatar
    mistermaxxx08

    The metaphor of lost,feeling as a human being, what is the purpose of life when one feels like a apple on a tree that folks take and Don’t respect the nature

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    1. Eleanor Lorene Lowe Avatar
      Eleanor Lorene Lowe

      YES! You get it. Take and take — not a lot of give and give.

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